自从爸爸不在了
家里还是一样的过
可是还是变了
A还好 虽然脾气还是暴躁了点
至少可爱的孩子出世了后
稍微微微好了 恩 这算是好事
B嘛 反而变本加厉
计较 懒惰 虚假 爱面子
不懂得分寸 越来越过分 
算了 三天三夜也说不完
C嘛 过多几个月就要搬出去了
D 也不可能回来住
就剩下老么我 当然还有我妈
至于我妈 变得更脆弱了
每当佳节到来 妈妈的眼泪
就让我好心痛 

无法抉择 

因为害怕

害怕我又再次伤了你

我不想再发生了

真的不想了 

就保持这样

恋爱 我果然不行

......

Heeeeeeee... im back 

I think no one will notice here anymore 

so I can write anything I want to hehe.

Hmmm am so confusing 

I think I'm a selfish person?

Always do whatever I wanted to

Cause I really can't control my mind

I'm not a steady person 

Yea I'm not.

My mind always changed faster than action

Why can't I just fix in one place?

I want some spaces to breath but

I need something to support BUT

I just can't fix in my mind.

Is really awkward when I see you

Feel like you're escaping me

Haa.. that's all my fault

I'm such a selfish person

Yea I don't deserve being loved

I'm just real sucks. 

So yea is really time to say

Good Bye. 

Moved

I will no longer be using blogger

Yet I'm now moving to

May visit or follow me at 

http://ahlor1127.tumblr.com/

See you there :) 

曾经

天公不作美 让你很不幸的遇上了我

遇上了个这么性情不定的我

或许我还没准备好 不知道

我讨厌自己的不知道

可是我没办法

我真的不懂我自己要什么

我讨厌这样的自己

所以我逃离得远远的

得到了 却逃离了

我知道这一切都太突然了

可 这就是我

永远不知道真正自己的我

你的挽回 确实让我心动

可是我拒绝了
要恨就恨我的狠心 为了 

让你不再受到任何的伤害
让你不再有任何的牵挂

我只是想要你知道

曾经的一切 都不是假的

我是真心真心地 喜欢过你

I miss

Pretending = Torturing

While rushing the freaking assignments  
A very simple goodnight came
Which made me felt uneasy
"What happen?" 
I wish I can send this message
But I'm just pretended nothing
Replied in a normal mood


Threw away the assignments
I can't even continue doing it
The deadline is just right around the corner, though
Maybe I did something wrong?
Please tell me if I did
I want to talk to you so badly 
I just wish that I can by your side
Yet pretend is such a torturing


Goodnight and sweet dreams
Missing you so badly.