厌倦

学院功课再多我也没后悔
可是一谈及钢琴
我真的很累 很累
那时第一次在家人面前哭
妈妈问我是不是不想学了
我勉强地摇头
因为我知道妈妈心里
一直都希望我继续下去
不想让她失望 可我真的好累
很想再哭 号啕大哭
挣扎了那么多年
我还是没办法去敞开心怀
真心地去接受它
怀疑自己其实是在找借口
可是我真的真的厌倦了。

远了  距离又更远了

真的远了

那条线  终究还是断了

没了

Goodbye for now

I can't hide what has come

I have to go and leave you alone

Goodbye my love

Goodbye for now

Guess you won't be here anymore

so, hell yeah

been with you for weeks

but it seems like more than months 

has been 4 months 

but it seems like been more than years ago

the places that we've been

memories flash back 

it sweets but hurts at the same time

to be honest, I never miss the day to think of you 

literally, really can't help but missing you

but I know, still can't get into it

the thoughts changed always

I know, I'm just an asshole bitch who doesn't deserve to get in

cause I'm just a freaking moron who don't even know what to do

being a coward isn't that funny 

Scared, escaped, lost

Plus lots of stuffs are messing me up 

Seriously, 2012 year isn't my year

Hope everything will be better before the world ends

Cheers. 

何必搞到这样

有什么事情不能好好解决

不要以为只有你自己痛苦

有没有想过身边的人

也同样的或许还比你更痛苦

成熟点 看开点

到底要几时你才能成长

你说在这里你很压力

说真的 你没资格说这句话 

你根本就没有自己真正地去体验自己的生活

谁更痛苦？你还是只想到自己

算了 哭到眼睛也肿了

泪也干了

真的 累了。

Seriously, I don't own your fucking life. 

Seriously
Do you hate me?
... 
For me, I do.

乱乱乱

心很乱
很乱 很乱 很乱

还是那么那么地乱

为什么就是不能做出决定

对  我还是很在意

每一天都回想  每天每天

好想穿破自己的那道墙

可是  还是下不了决心

我就是那么怪  那么麻烦

自从爸爸不在了
家里还是一样的过
可是还是变了
A还好 虽然脾气还是暴躁了点
至少可爱的孩子出世了后
稍微微微好了 恩 这算是好事
B嘛 反而变本加厉
计较 懒惰 虚假 爱面子
不懂得分寸 越来越过分 
算了 三天三夜也说不完
C嘛 过多几个月就要搬出去了
D 也不可能回来住
就剩下老么我 当然还有我妈
至于我妈 变得更脆弱了
每当佳节到来 妈妈的眼泪
就让我好心痛 

无法抉择 

因为害怕

害怕我又再次伤了你

我不想再发生了

真的不想了 

就保持这样

恋爱 我果然不行

......

Heeeeeeee... im back 

I think no one will notice here anymore 

so I can write anything I want to hehe.

Hmmm am so confusing 

I think I'm a selfish person?

Always do whatever I wanted to

Cause I really can't control my mind

I'm not a steady person 

Yea I'm not.

My mind always changed faster than action

Why can't I just fix in one place?

I want some spaces to breath but

I need something to support BUT

I just can't fix in my mind.

Is really awkward when I see you

Feel like you're escaping me

Haa.. that's all my fault

I'm such a selfish person

Yea I don't deserve being loved

I'm just real sucks. 

So yea is really time to say

Good Bye.