Missing You

Oh man I miss friendsssss...so badly
I miss the gossip days
I miss the moments with you all!
I want to meet you all!! 
let's watch transformer together xD
I must meeeeet you alllll I do really misssss :'(


special part to
Ann, 
don't you feel upset
I know is hurt to be hurt by someone
but don't you ever think of any bad moves
NO NO no, it doesn't worth at all dude
even because of that bitch
no way, totally NO.
what you should do now is to look forward
I know is hard but you have to
since you've choose this way
then you have to face it no matter what
I know I can't help you out 
but I will always stand by your side
remember, you're not alone. 

每天都是种练习

好几天了没有你的消息

才发现其实想着你

当爱被紧紧地锁在心底

自由就张开翅膀飞出去

还需要一点幽默的心情

才能面对你失望的离去

快乐的气氛也许能暂时逃避

却又让伤害更彻底

我被恐惧深深的囚禁

我没有力气逃出去

每天都是新的练习

用今天换走过去

用明天换走失去的

College life

Woopsss, spider web again x)
Im kinda busy these few weeks for assignments zzz
Oh ya did I mention here of which college I studying? 

Well, is The One Academy :)
Is not as big as some uni or colleges, though
Just shop lot, but I love the outside wall which is sooo colorful.
I love TOA, because it's my dream art college :D
And finally I've went in! Rawrrrrr ! xD
Well, just ended week 4.
Means that just 9 weeks left to end the 1st semester.
Ohh gosh time does really fliesss.
It seems like just 1 week ago :O
About the courses, almost drawing everyday, YEAH.
Really glad that I don't need to study NUMBERS such as ADD MATH = NIGHTMARE. 
But still, HISTORY OF ART and MALAYSIAN STUDIES are exist.
Owhhh, I tried to love both of you but I just can't resist from hatred F5
Forgive me and I will do my best still :/
Now let me show you what I've done for some of my assignments

I got 7.5/10 for drawing.
Sounds quite high? Tell you what, I got the lowest mark among my friends! 
They all got 8 above, their drawings are really so complicated but damn nice! Claps for them :)
Oh crap, mine are the simplest compare with them :O

These are called Finished Art which is 100% handmade xD
I don't really like to do but when the result came out it surprised me.
The small book with teddy cover one
I got 8/10 which means I got the highest mark among my friends! 
Wahahahaha I'm so proud of it! BIG CLAPS! xD
I'm satisfied enough, not the highest mark in class, though :)
Anyway, I would like to thank you gratefully to my parents.
If not I won't have such a lucky chance to study at TOA without them :D
I really do appreciate and I will do my best no matter what :)
Cheers.

Get the Hell Off

Sick of the word sorry without even a little sincere.

Hate to leave without a simple goodbye.

And these were what I did before.

I hate myself, and you. 

Pissed off. 

面对事实

我到底喜欢钢琴不?

现在对它的感情是[不]

我曾经一度崩溃大哭

好想把它砸烂丢下大海

离我越远越好

可我必须面对事实 

我不能再这么任性下去

如果我现在选择放弃

妈妈一定会很失望

爸爸在天上一定很难过

他们是那么的辛苦栽培养育我

为的就是达成他们的心愿

所以现在我不能踩煞车

我必须踩油前进，管它慢或快

时间将会证实一切

当然，我不会是天下第一

但是我会用尽全力

提升自我，征服钢琴

直达终点

是的，我是该知足了 

因为我所拥有的一切

已证实我是幸福的。

梦。道别

梦真的很神奇

那感觉感情感触

都好真实好真实

你好像忘了什么

却也没什么

只管沉浸在梦里

好好地享受

好好地沉醉

好幸福好快乐

醒过来后

咦

太阳穴道从眼角处

留下紧绷的泪痕

谁的眼泪?

滴答滴答滴答 ---

绞尽脑汁的回想

模糊的场景浮现

啊

原来梦里的一切

真的真的是一场

虚拟华丽却夹杂着

真实朴实的道别

Where should I go?

SPM 2010 of English subject had ruined so many candidates
including me, so badly =/
I still can't make up my mind until now
because of the blockades.
Where should I go now?


MMU? 
I have not reach the requirements and so the only two ways to enroll are
1. take diploma IT for around 2 years with 2.8 GPA above then only can go on the animation course OR
2. take november spm english paper (should be june paper, but I had missed the date of registration =/)
For no1. My sisters were holy disagreed with it. Said is risky for me if I cant get a better result to go on animation then my future will be all 'done'. =.= What if I study harder and harder and harder? I know I'm lazy but never try never know.
For no2. Even though I had registered for it, I don't really agree with. Cause I will only start the college next year. Most of my friends said that is too late and wasted time. Hmmm 

The One? 

The most popular art college in local. Even though I have reach the requirements, the fees are pretty too nice. I will become 穷学生 when studying. For frank, the fees are too much la wei -.-

And so
Holy my god. 
What should I do now? 


HMMM ... ... ... =/