嗯？

开facebook一看
NS的NS
工作的工作
开课的开课
而我 窝在家里无所事事
上个星期去interview
而我因为前一晚才临时抱佛脚去练琴
当天弹得一塌糊涂
我是老板都不要我自己
好啦 是我该死 我认罪 =x
只好再找下一个目标~
不过说实在的
我跟老师学了9年 可是
最近我钢琴弹得真的退步了很多很多很多
我自己都吓到
我到底是怎么搞的
好几次弹到崩溃的哭了
不明白不明白不明白
我心里在想什么
我自己都不清楚
不过我是担心了
超害怕超紧张
3月的来临
不敢想象拿成绩的那一天
那几个可怕字母的局限
我到底可以拿到什么
真的完全没头绪 自信性全灭
我不奢望可以拿到什么好成绩
只希望平安过关就好 拜托了 真的拜托了

Life...?

Brain: What are you thinking about?

Me: I'm thinking to give up.

Brain : What for you giving up?


Me : Cause I have no idea of my future.


Brain : What have you done since you were borned until now?


Me : Eat, sleep and play..? Just as bore as usual.


Brain: ... I mean, do you really know what life is?

Me: Life? To live and fool around?

Brain: No! You're so young but trying to live like this in the rest of your life?

Me: Why not? No wars, peaceful continues. Life goes on~

Brain: No! You didn't even get 1% of it. Try to live your life but not just fool around!
         
Me: But I'm afraid! Afraid of getting to the wrong way..


Brain: Don't you just waste your time to think without action! How the hell do you know will your future be if you never step out once?

Me: What if... I really got to failure?!

Brain: Try to figure out the world. Challenges are waiting for us in the every single corner.. No pain no gain.. Dreams won't come true without taking any actions. Life is full of challenges but peaceful too.. And so Failure is just part of it to Success. As all of this is making by your own way. No one can judge it but only YOU. Understood?

Me: Yea.. I think so.

Brain: So, ... MOVE NOW!

Birthday and Wishes

Hello everyone! I'm here again :)
let's back to 4th of Nov...
which was the day of birthday celebrating of MIMI, AH TONG n ME~!
it was a totally surprise for me
I didn't expect at allll, REALLY
really thanksss a lot to mabel, yeeyi, winy, mika, ah tong, rae, mimi and chii
my dearest lovely BEST FRIENDS :D
let the pictures talk.

For the cutie ah tong

For the beauty mimi



My favourate anime, ONE PIECE!



Just sweet :)



Love this the most :D

Well, on 27th of Nov... 
Began with a talk about DEPARTURE 《道别》
the presenter 郭洪国雄老师 is from Taiwan who is with a big round "toulam", shaved round head 
a chubby funny humor guy x)
just got in there after few minutes
lots of the audiences were cried out included me by his words which were touched us deeply
here's some of his philosophies:

• 从失落到原点，告别是复原的起点
• 多一点关心，就能少一点遗憾
• 用怀念与感恩的心赶走悲情
• 不管你的心中有多么的不愿意，想念，思念，你最终仍要放手
• 生命中还有很多尚未做完的功课
• 不能说的愿望往往是最想被实现的
• 怀念是大家都可以搜寻的记忆
• 我想到他还是会掉眼泪，可我还是要想念他；我宁可掉眼泪，也不想忘掉他
• 我们要让生命中的苦难经验化作生命中最美丽的祝福

Best wish for ah ba :)

Balloons flew, may our best wishes reach on your hands :)



SPM ha ha ha

Wootsss, last day before SPM, about 12 hours to SPM.
First subject is Bahasa Melayu
the poorest and the 'hatest' subject for me
why does bm needed so much in this country?! 
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Second is Bahasa Inggeris 
the favourate subject but not the best lol
Third is SEJARAH
OH MY, why it comes so fast....?!
I just done 10% overall =.= 
and the rest subjects.... kinda lazy to write
5A's....... miracles broken 
Iphone4..... had gone far far away from me
SPM, you're freaking me out! 
$%^&#@!%$&$#.....
Anyway, I will do my best still and hope miracles do happen =)


Good luck and All the best everyone 
May God bless you or May Buddha "bobi" you 
Cheers! =)

留念

准备开晚饭时  

我算一算人数

顿时疆住

竟然算多了   一人份

突然觉得好空虚

空虚得   好心痛 

不敢回想

当时的残酷 

到至今为止

已将近六个月  

可我还是无法习惯

无法接受  无法看开

我快要无法承受

那过多沉重的现实

或许我是在逃避

想回到以前的时光

开开心心  漫无目的

自由自在  傻乎乎地过日子

没有烦恼  多么好啊

可天底下哪有永远的美好

也许我之前过得太充实

所以等价交换   换来的是

离世的生命

可为什么不等多几年

等到我毕业  

至少到我大学毕业

用最愉快的心情

用最灿烂的笑容

全家人一起

拍下最美好的   

最后留念

爸, 我真的好想你, 好想你

SPM + Future

SPM is nearer and nearer

and I didn't study much, just did 20% overall i think

bad huh? yea, so I'm trying my best to get 5A's 

cause i will get 50 sg dolar and rm50 for each A 

and and and..... will get an Iphone 4 if reach 5A's!!!

wooooots, that's really arouse me immediately 

I know it's not a good way of excitation but

this is the only way for me lol!

please prepare your money, my dear sisters :p

Let's say if after SPM

what course are you going to?

what are you going to be that you wish to?

will it all to be achieve or wrongly?

About the piano

I have lessss interest 

until I really had scared, frustrated and annoyed with it

and is like going to be swallow by another scheme

And the scheme is, animation

this is the most big ambitious I had

cause animation is not an easy course

every courses are not easy, though

but I do really wish to succeed with all my efforts 

who knows I will become a pianist as great as Beethoven? (I don't wish to)

who knows I will become an animator as great as James Cameron? (I do really wish to)

who knows?

Everything's like Nothing

Is beeeeeen a long time didn't update, spider web orz

ok la, i've clean it up, a brand new me(?) lol

nono, is still me. 

2010 this year, is going to end of my school life.

but, actually I do really hate, truly hate, sad, scared and disappointed.

SPM, depart of soul, classmate's "friendship", true friendship, etc.

all these stuffs really pissed me off.

I really have no idea what the hell is going on this year.

Is like... all those good things, turn badly unexpected.

why everything's gone bad without any reason?!

I've cried enough, I've regret enough, I've happy enough.

I've enough with everything!! I can't stand it anymore!!!

Everything's like Nothing. Helpless

why time doesn't wait for us, I really hope that, why don't stop on that time.

And everything might change, happy ending.