呃

怎么说

心情怪怪的

想发泄却不懂为了什么

朋友他直问说干嘛干嘛

我只能直说没有没有

对不起 也谢谢你

不是我要故意冷淡

只是真的没什么心情

不要问我为什么

我不知道

我真的没头绪

可能是我一时的情绪化

使我神经错乱

算了算了

当我说梦话

说废话

发泄发泄

心情好 =)



嗯？

开facebook一看
NS的NS
工作的工作
开课的开课
而我 窝在家里无所事事
上个星期去interview
而我因为前一晚才临时抱佛脚去练琴
当天弹得一塌糊涂
我是老板都不要我自己
好啦 是我该死 我认罪 =x
只好再找下一个目标~
不过说实在的
我跟老师学了9年 可是
最近我钢琴弹得真的退步了很多很多很多
我自己都吓到
我到底是怎么搞的
好几次弹到崩溃的哭了
不明白不明白不明白
我心里在想什么
我自己都不清楚
不过我是担心了
超害怕超紧张
3月的来临
不敢想象拿成绩的那一天
那几个可怕字母的局限
我到底可以拿到什么
真的完全没头绪 自信性全灭
我不奢望可以拿到什么好成绩
只希望平安过关就好 拜托了 真的拜托了

Life...?

Brain: What are you thinking about?

Me: I'm thinking to give up.

Brain : What for you giving up?


Me : Cause I have no idea of my future.


Brain : What have you done since you were borned until now?


Me : Eat, sleep and play..? Just as bore as usual.


Brain: ... I mean, do you really know what life is?

Me: Life? To live and fool around?

Brain: No! You're so young but trying to live like this in the rest of your life?

Me: Why not? No wars, peaceful continues. Life goes on~

Brain: No! You didn't even get 1% of it. Try to live your life but not just fool around!
         
Me: But I'm afraid! Afraid of getting to the wrong way..


Brain: Don't you just waste your time to think without action! How the hell do you know will your future be if you never step out once?

Me: What if... I really got to failure?!

Brain: Try to figure out the world. Challenges are waiting for us in the every single corner.. No pain no gain.. Dreams won't come true without taking any actions. Life is full of challenges but peaceful too.. And so Failure is just part of it to Success. As all of this is making by your own way. No one can judge it but only YOU. Understood?

Me: Yea.. I think so.

Brain: So, ... MOVE NOW!